The bridge to Rikers Island is called the Bridge of Pain. You're on this bus. You see the city behind you. And in front of you, you see nothing but①carpet英 ['kɑ?p?t] 美 ['kɑrp?t] vt.在……上鋪地毯n. 地毯nothing but 只有；只不過four walls. I was sent there for a year when I was nineteen years old. My friends and I got caught stealing copper pipes from a construction site. All of us grew up together. I thought they had my back. But none of them came to see me in prison. I had zero visits. Nobody put money in my account. So I haven't talked to any of those guys since I got out. I work two jobs now. I stay out of trouble. I’m trying not to be a negative②stain 英 [ste?n] 美 [sten] vt. 玷污；給……著色vi. 污染；被玷污；被染污 negative 英 ['neg?t?v] 美 ['n?ɡ?t?v] adj. 消極的 n. 否定、person anymore.I still have anger problems. I think it's because there was so much yelling③ramble 英 ['r?mb(?)l] 美 ['r?mbl]n. 漫步vt. 漫步于……vi. 漫步；漫談yelling v. 叫喊（yell的ing形式）and violence④sculpt英 [sk?lpt] 美 [sk?lpt] vt. 造型；雕刻 vi. 造型；雕刻 violence 英 ['va??l(?)ns] 美 ['va??l?ns] n. 暴力；侵犯；激烈；歪曲in my house growing up.But whenever I feel the anger coming on, I just close my eyes and rub my ears.My baby brothers used to rub my ears when I was growing up. When things got bad in the house—it always used to calm me down.