朱子鳴
Inthemorningoflifecameagoodfairywithherbasket,andsaid:“Herearegifts.Takeone,leavetheothers.Andbewary,choosewisely!Foronlyoneofthemisvaluable.”
Thegiftswerefive:Fame,Love,Riches,Pleasure,Death.Theyouth,said,eagerly:“Thereisnoneedtoconsider”;andhechosePleasure.
Hewentoutintotheworldandsoughtoutthepleasuresthatyouthdelightsin.Buteachinitsturnwasshort-livedanddisappointing,vain
在生命之初,一位仙女帶著籃子走來(lái),對(duì)一位年輕人說(shuō)道:“這里有幾份禮物,你可以從中選一份,留下其它的。你要小心,做一個(gè)明智的選擇!因?yàn)檫@里面只有一份禮物是珍貴的?!?/p>
一共有五份禮物:名聲,愛(ài)情,財(cái)富,快樂(lè),還有死亡。年輕人迫不及待地說(shuō):“沒(méi)有必要多想?!彼x了快樂(lè)。
此后他就開(kāi)始步入世界,追逐年輕人所喜愛(ài)的快樂(lè)。然而每一種快樂(lè)都是如此短暫,令人感到空虛和失望。每當(dāng)一種快樂(lè)棄
andempty;andeach,departing,mockedhim.Intheendhesaid:“TheseyearsIhavewasted.IfIcouldbutchooseagain,Iwouldchoosewisely.”
Thefairyappeared,andsaid:“Fourofthegiftsremain.chooseoncemore:andoh,remem-ber—timeisflying,andonlyoneofthemispre-cious.”
Themanconsideredlong,thenchoseLove;anddidnotmarkthetearsthatroseinthefairyseyes.Aftermany,manyyearsthemansatbyacoffin,inanemptyhome.Andhecom-munedwithhimself,saying:“Onebyonetheyhavegoneawayandleftme;andnowshelieshere,thedearestandthelast.Desolationafterdesolationhassweptoverme;buteachhourofhappinessthetreacheroustrader,Love,soldmeIhavepaidathousandhoursofgrief!OutofmyheartofheartsIcursehim!”
“Chooseagain.”Itwasthefairyspeaking.“Theyearshaveyouwisdom—surelyitmustbeso.Theregiftsremain.Onlyoneofthemhasanyworth—rememberit,andchoosewarily.”
Themanreflectedlong,thenchoseFame;andthefairy,sighing,wentherway.Yearswentbyandshecameagain,andstoodbehindthemanwherehesatsolitaryinthefadingday,thinking.Andsheknewhisthought:“Mynamefilledtheworld,anditspraiseswereoneverytongue,anditseemedwellwithmeforalittlewhile.Howlittleawhileitwas!Thencameen-vy;thendetraction;thenhate;thenpersecution.Thenderision,whichisthebeginingoftheendAndlastofallcamepity,whichisthefuneraloffame.Oh,thebitternessandmiseryofrenown!”
“Chooseyetagain.”Itwasthefairysvoice.
他而去時(shí),還要把他嘲弄一番。最后,年輕人感嘆道:“這些年我都浪費(fèi)了。如果我可以再選一次,我一定會(huì)做一個(gè)明智的選擇?!?/p>
這時(shí)仙女又出現(xiàn)了,她說(shuō):“這里還有四份禮物。再選一次吧。噢,記住時(shí)間飛逝,而其中只有一件是珍貴的?!?/p>
他思考了很久,最終選擇了愛(ài)情;他沒(méi)有注意到仙女眼里泛起的淚光。許多許多年之后,這個(gè)人坐在一口棺材旁邊,屋子里空蕩蕩的。他自言自語(yǔ)道:“他們一個(gè)一個(gè)地走了,只剩下我?,F(xiàn)在,她就躺在這兒,我最親愛(ài)的人兒,我最后的親人。孤獨(dú)一次又一次把我包圍。都是因?yàn)閻?ài)情這個(gè)陰狡詐的商人,他出售給我的每個(gè)甜蜜的小時(shí),我現(xiàn)在都要用數(shù)千個(gè)小時(shí)的悲傷來(lái)償還!我從心底里詛咒他!”
“你再選一次吧?!毕膳忠淮握f(shuō)話了,“這些年已經(jīng)教予你智慧——也理當(dāng)如此。這里還有三份禮物,其中只有一份是有價(jià)值的——切記,你好好挑吧?!?/p>
他想了很久,然后選擇了名聲。仙女嘆了口氣,徑自離開(kāi)了。歲月流轉(zhuǎn),仙女又回來(lái)了,站到他的身旁。已邁入遲暮之年的他孑然一身,心事重重。他在想些什么,她都了然于心?!拔业拿謧鞅槭澜?,每個(gè)人都爭(zhēng)相贊頌,有一陣子好像讓我心滿意足??赡鞘嵌嗝炊虝旱囊魂囎影?!隨之而來(lái)的是妒忌;然后是詆毀;然后是憎惡;然后是迫害。之后是嘲諷,從一切開(kāi)始步入完結(jié)。最后便是憐憫,這也是我的名聲的葬禮。啊,名聲原來(lái)是這般苦澀和痛苦!”
“不過(guò)你還可以重新挑一次?!毕膳穆曇粼俣软懫?。
“Twogiftsremain.Anddonotdespair.Inthebeginingtherewasbutonethatwaspre-cious,anditisstillhere.”
“Wealth—whichispower!HowblindIwas!”Saidtheman,“Now,atlast,lifewillbeworththeliving.Iwillspend,squander,dazzle.Thesemockersanddespiserswillcrawlinthedirtbeforeme,andIwillfeedmyhungryheartwiththeirenvy,Iwillhaveallluxuries,alljoys,allenchant-timesofthespirit.Iwillbuy,buy,buy!Ihavelostmuchtime,andchosenbadlyheretofore,butletthatpass;Iwasignorantthen,andcouldbuttakeforbestwhatseemed
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so.
Threeshortyearswentby,andadaycamewhenthemansatshiveringinameangarret;andhewasgauntandwanandhollow-eyed,andclothedinrags;andhewasgnawingadrycrustandmumbling:“Cursealltheworldsgiftsformockeriesandgildedlies!Andmis-called,everyone.Theyarenotgifts,butmerelylendings.Pleasure,Love,F(xiàn)ame,Riches:theyarebuttemporarydisguisesforlastingrealitiesPain,Grief,Shame,Poverty.Thefairysaidtrue;inallherstoretherewasbutonegiftwhichwasprecious,onlyonethatwasnotval-ueless.HowpoorandcheapandmeanIknowthoseothersnowtobe.Bringit!Iamweary.Iwouldrest.”
Thefairycame,bringingagainfourofthegifts,butDeathwaswanting.Shesaid:“Igaveittoamotherspet,alittlechild.Itwasigno-rant,buttrustedme,askingmetochooseforit.Youdidnotaskmetochoose.”
“Oh,miserableme!Whatisleftforme?”
“Whatnotevenyouhavedeserved:thewantoninsultofoldage.”
“還剩下兩份禮物。不要灰心喪氣,從一開(kāi)始就只有一份是寶貴的,而現(xiàn)在它還在那里啊。”
“財(cái)富——財(cái)富就是力量!我過(guò)去多盲目??!”他說(shuō),“現(xiàn)在,終于,我的生命將要變得有意義。我要縱情歡度此生,我要揮霍我的人生。那些對(duì)我冷嘲熱諷,輕蔑詆毀我的人將要在我面前的泥土里掙扎,而我饑渴的心也將因?yàn)樗麄兊亩始啥玫綕M足。我將要享盡榮華富貴,所有歡樂(lè)和所有銷(xiāo)魂的時(shí)光。我要買(mǎi),買(mǎi),買(mǎi)!以前我做錯(cuò)了選擇,失去了許多時(shí)間,就讓它過(guò)去吧;當(dāng)時(shí)我很無(wú)知,我只能選我覺(jué)得最好的東西。”
短短的三年又過(guò)去了。到了這么一天,這個(gè)人蜷縮在一個(gè)簡(jiǎn)陋的小閣樓里,骨瘦如柴,蒼白無(wú)力,雙眼深陷,身上裹著碎布衣衫,渾身顫抖不停。他一邊啃著一塊干面包皮,一邊咕噥著:“該死的禮物,都是為了讓我受人嘲笑和欺詐!每一樣都叫錯(cuò)了!它們都不是禮物,根本只是租借品!快樂(lè),愛(ài)情,名聲還有財(cái)富——都只不過(guò)是長(zhǎng)久現(xiàn)實(shí)的暫時(shí)偽裝——它們其實(shí)是永遠(yuǎn)的痛苦,悲哀,恥辱和貧窮!那個(gè)仙女說(shuō)的沒(méi)錯(cuò)啊,她所有的東西里只有一樣是珍貴的,只有那么一樣不是毫無(wú)價(jià)值的。我現(xiàn)在才明白,其它禮物是多么低賤與卑劣!把它帶來(lái)吧——那真正寶貴的禮物!我累了,我想休息了。”
仙女出現(xiàn)了,帶著以前的那四件禮物,但惟獨(dú)沒(méi)有最后那一件——死亡。她說(shuō)道:“我把它給了一位母親的寵兒子:一個(gè)小孩子。他什么也不懂,但他相信我,讓我來(lái)幫他挑選。而你并沒(méi)有這么做?!?/p>
“啊,我多可悲?。∧沁€剩下什么給我呢?”
“一件你也不配得到的東西:接受年老體衰的折磨?!庇⒄Z(yǔ)篇